For the past 2 days I had been reading a lot about aneroxia and bulimia. They are eating disorders. I hate disorders. In my brain, everything must be orderly. But the world is a desorderly place. And, so, people allow the disorder of the world to invade their bodies and their minds. The devil. That is what Satan is. A disorder king. He finds all kinds of devices to destroy us. We are all made in God's own image. Everything that is called sin is a transgression against the magnificent project the Almighty has proposed through our lives. Fornication, adultery, gluttonary, rage, lack of discipline -- these are all attacks on God. But we are Satan's ultimate target. Our weapon against him is our walk with Jesus.
My Jesus, my Light, my Path. Every once in a while I fear I might not walk closely to my God, and fall away into a sinful life. But then, I must remind myself that I can only live today. There is just today. I must do what is good and right today. To me, yesterday and tomorrow truly do not exist. And, they do not exist, indeed. The former existED, and the latter NEVER existed.
Even though I am not out about, I must watch my soul so it will not be permeated by impurities. It is not easy. If I walk this way, I will be called a fanatic. And if I choose to kick God to the curb by ignoring him, I am an atheist. I am tired, restless. I need to upload my pictures onto the Walgreens website so I can have them developed.
And fear! Fear is paralysing. I can't live fearing this or that. The only being I want to fear is my maker. Oh!\
The website I was reading upon EDs was http://www.2medusa.com/ . It was an outstanding resource for those who want to be informed, and for those who are struggling with their vices. Yes. Those sinful acts are vices and addictions.
Good night.
About Me
- Troth Aude
- I have created this space to share whatever comes to my mind. In school, there was such an emphasis on writing, and even blogging. I take this will be a place for me to rant, vent, teach, to love and to be loved, to hate and to be hated. Furthermore, it will help me to cope with the emptiness that comes from living away from my family. I am a foreigner married to an American. We love each other and are committed to our little family. I plan to blog at least twice a week, and I hope folks will be interested in what I have to share. I think a blog is a place where people who are like minded can meet and mingle, and keep their distance at the same time. I am usually thinking of God, family, fitness, eating healthily, and being a good friend. I think my posts will be worthwhile. Well, follow me, and get to know my mind, and my world.
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